we were meant to live for so much more.

to my funny friend ,

i know i haven't been close to you in the past year or so.i dont know what or why i somehow feel awkward with you. but you were right, i probably felt that way cuz we're so distant now. even i feel weird about why i can never hang out with you alone like how you do to other girls. maybe its cuz i'm scared we'll run out of things to say or you'll get bored of me or i'll get bored of you. you use to be the second person i run to when something interesting happens and seeing you get so hyped makes me even more excited about my happenings i.e mcdreamy and mcsteamy.haha( i like ppl reacting with me) and like i said my taken life makes me have far less gossip to fill you in about meaning far less conversations. even if i do I'll be telling you only the mean, sad stuff which is really unfair to my other half since you guys are good friends and even though we've been close friends for almost err 4 years now i don't remember ever buying you gifts for ur special days. I'm so sorry i only run to you when i have problems and i don't have anyone else. and even though sometimes i highly disagree with ur choices and decisions and I'm sure you do with some of mine only you can realise and change them. for someone who's younger than me i really feel you're damn matured in your thinking. people have perceptions where a guy-girl close friend relationship eventually doesn't work i really hope this will last forever. even when you're a thousand miles away and married and last but not least i really hope you'll find a girl who'll give you unconditional love cuz seriously, you deserve it.

my fondest memories with you are when we pretended to be together bangsar, merdeka's after ditching the rest and late night calls about everything on this one particular night in form 4 where my jaws were damn pain either from talking or laughing and not forgetting the bimbotic high school moments where i was the subject for laughter but didn't mind at all.

i quote you

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."


love,
princessdumbass

haiyoh so malas to blog already. but i'm so determined to keep this one going. so yesterday was my deepavali open house. i know its a week late but who cares. it was suppose to be on deepavali day itself but mom cancelled due to several reasons. i wore a sari for the first time. basically cuz buying a sari blouse is wayy cheaper than buying something else (2 for RM24). the cloth itself was borowed from my moms chinese friend! hehe i'm so a fail Indian. if you're reading and wasn't invited, it was mainly due to my moms hands and how much she could cook for so she limited me to 10ish people so i just invited to close ones. but in the end there was plenty left and her friends ended up tapau-ing it. so she learnt her lesson and i learnt mine :) on a different note, i really feel like venturing into journalism. i have no idea why. i just feel like it'll be something interesting to do. and its not like i thought abt it once. everytime i hear the word diploma or magazine or uni's. its crazyy i know cuz firstly my english/writing is not that good, i need to think so much before starting to write a report/essay and just to reach that 500, yes 500 min words i'm already dying. i dont have a flare for it really. i hate reading books and i think i need to start mang! anyway i dont even think this will become a reality but i feel like i need to express it somewhere and what better place than my own blog. i'm very much confused about my plans for my studies. fashion still? or business or something else. should i take a year off? idk! i know have a routine of waking up and looking for part time jobs. you know the one day jobs that pay you alot. i havent gotten any replies and i'm pretty bummed. i think i'm gonna change my plans for the future from being a fat mum who doesnt care abt her weight, spoils her kids and a housewife to a not so fat mum with her own business who still spoils her kids but not in an excessive way and has something to accomplish every year. see how jumbled up my post is. someone, the next time you see me pls force me to read and give me books for my birthday ( omg ok i think i'll cry if you do this. haha my sister did once and i forced her to get me something else as well cuz i thought i was so ewwww) i guess i'm paying the price now :(

with mom and her bunch.

with everyone who made it a joyous one.

with atieboobs and syirabangs

with babypie who makes me a happy happy girl

i love this picture of us.

xx.

hello lovelies. i'm so dead sleepy and lazy to shower. nothing interesting happened this week. college as usual and been going ard hunting for stuff for this saturday. i've got to get my room organized or bare the screaming from mum. tuesday was banana leaf with baby for dinner and later to BR hartamas for some yummy ice-cream and laughter :) i now have 4 days of classes instead of 3 cuz we have an additional subject. sighhh went to brickfields yesterday for sari blouses and sweeets. now i kinda regret not going during the usual deepavali period. headed to canai later for kebab while the guys shisha-ed and then to helo bali in my shorts and t-shirt where i got mutiple stares to meet my dear friend niro for abit. today had assignments to complete and then college again which was a pure waste of time. wasn't even paying attention and before we knew it class was over. ok i'm gonna go to bed early today cuz we're heading down to johor tmrw for a friend. i wasn't close to her i must say but it seriously was damn shocking. ok toods!

diwali

So this year, diwali was spent with the family at kampung seremban. drove down alone to see the grandmama. she's getting cuter every year i swear! drove back up again by 4 to go for amars open house. the whole day i had yummy food. shamelessly helping myself to plates of rice, curry and mutton vareval. its so sad how i'm indian and i don't hve visiting to do instead i go for my fellow indian mate's open house and every other indian friend of his cant make it cuz they've got their own thing going on. On mom's side : brother in canada (no contact), sister in penang married to chinese so i think she celebrates chinese new year (no contact), sister in alor setar (no contact) and lastly sister in USA who celebrates christmas (no contact). On dad's side: pls this even more pathetic no need to explain la. haha so see how divided the family is? i'm gonna make sure i get married and have a big family and give birth to a gazillion kids so that they'll have a nice huge family to have festivities with :D.

she was confused at first

damnnn cute i feel like wobbling her cheeks!

daughter. mother. grandmother

the other night.

spasm. haha

ramanibavani.

dont worry your getting there. haha

fatty.

angel wings.

babypie

in between fights.

godrei

he kept on blocking me from taking a decent photo of myself. grrr

heh.

xx.

this week was so much better. even when i was home alone i didn't feel that lonely. i had friends to fill in and I'm so grateful for that. first day of class where i got quite freaked out about my two dear friends researching about college and me doing nothing. wake up call. even if I'm gonna be staying here i still need to do some research. but for now i'm just lazyy so in a few months time ok. haha then i had the good old dose of shopping. for magazines and other stuff in amcorp, random places and sg. wang. got a summon which totally and utterly dampened my joyful mood. second time at the same place by the same authority. grr. next up was clubbing at mumbai se with the usuals. place was abit dodgy looking. like komtar in penang. but once we got it it was alright. dont you just love it when girls are fat but they seriously dont give a shit about how you view their body and they're just proud of their curves. i seriously look up to that. as long as you dont find it a problem, i don't think anyone will. got back really late though and cam-whored like cow which i will post up in the next one. just came back from a good day. spent the day with ramani and gerard first in ac. there was this online bazaar thing which was going on. browsed abit but there was nothing worth the price. chiddady chat with them until 6ish then headed to fattys place to pick him up for shaf's open house. had satayy, soto, his granmama's shepherds pie and cakes. chiddady chat till 10 then headed to nainna's to meet the guys. chilled with ramani and gerard after the rest left to play poker. ramani leaving to johorr tmrw :((( i feel so lifeless now. haha anyway i came back to a pos ekspress envelope on the diners. was so disappointed with the content though. bought this necklace which looked damnn nice online but turned out damn short in length. and not so gold! for 35 bucks i seriously got ripped off. if the owner ever reads this: i'm sorry, i still do find it nice. but not as nice as how u portrayed in online. u enlarge so big until i also like wahhhh! see now i get so kuci. but i'm still loving it. just expected more. okayy lovelies. exoh.

do check out her shop. who knows you might just fall for something purrdyy.

http://stephaniefong.blogspot.com/

and in case you were wondering what i got here it is:

yes imma sucker for anything mythical

nowadays i wake up really late. according to my mindset la. 12pm. its like half the day wasted but I'm really happy considering how i use to get up at 7ish 8 even when i don't have college and do nothing.

a little something i made to get my rings organized

picture source le love

holy cowwwwww. i'm fattttttt. shravan thanks. i dint really feel it until you said i'm dayummmm fat. ok fat i understand. dayummm fat is just... depressing. got a brown bag just now. i think i impulsively bought it. just cause i was flipping through and found a picture of kate hudson carrying one complementing her nautical stripe look. waste money balls. oh and i got this uber pretty magazine. with good writeups too! the pages are made of thick paper and non glossy and so pretty. see what old magazine scouting can find you. i laf ! ok off to hopefully catch babey modelling.exohh lovelies

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just got back after consuming one huge plate of fried rice. i'm not helping myself either. sighh

earlier today

polis much? PDL15

mmm my fav tandoori and butter naan.

stupid fats did this on purpose!

teh o aisss

her boyfriend

the dad who stay at the party and drank coke with whisky for the first time!

birthday girl

exoh.